Monthsary Cards

Feet hurting. Looking for a card for mom. I'll take care of the cake later. Kat reminded me to get a "5" and a "1" candle. It appalled me that she had to remind me, but I let it go. Today is for merriment, not for snappish remarks. The hunt was triply tricky as there was a vast variety of cards. Little ones that can hold money in them. Those that can cradle the picture of an ugly, in-dire-need-of-threading girlfriend. Strains of Beethoven upon opening, most of which will run out of battery way before the intended recipients get them. A card fit for virtually any occassion. For Golden anniversaries to the vaccination of one's dogs to...yes, monthsaries.

And they make "monthsary" cards now. Wow. In this age of 3-day forever's and 3-hour happy endings, is a change of a calendar page a monumental achievement for a relationship? I want a love that will count years, not menstrual periods. I know I have not received (nor given) a "monthsary" token. I don't want to. Contrary to popular belief, I am NOT jaded. Fact of the matter is, I am an idealist. The relationships I had didn't reach regular Sunday lunches, yes. This has been my choice. I stubbornly refuse to settle for something which I know will not weather changes of Senatorial sets.

So while I wait for Mr. Right, I celebrate weekends watching Discovery Channel with Mr. Right Now.

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"I won't be home tonight. Dito ako kaynila Tita Lit. Steady lang kayo jan."

- Text from Mom as I was looking for a "5" and a "1" candle.

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I was craving for cake. The yellow confetti rain depressed me so. A blink of bliss, thanks to sweet spaghetti from the pantry. I was looking forward to the Birthday Taste - a cocktail of icecream, tomato sauce and icing. Tuna again for dinner, it seems.

I was royally upset. I wasted a leave for today, thinking we'd be up videoke-ing in icing hyperness all night. Mom preferred to spend her birthday elsewhere. Maybe this is what love is - letting someone have their perfect day, even if it means that you're not part of it.

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"Ako na lang. Hindi ka naman niya mahal e."

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Maybe I secretly like where I am now. It's not much, but it's what's best for my sanity.